Today has been a very joyous day for me. I attended the wedding of my church mates, Cynthia and Moses. It was a very beautiful wedding.
Looking at both of them, I feel really happy. They were made to suit each other. The picture was perfect. It was like God made them for each other. The joy on their faces and the conviction in their voices during the Matrimony testifed their strong love for each other. I really thank God for their loving bond. Congratulations Cynthia and Moses! May the both of you continue to grow in God's unfailing love and continue to serve Him with such zeal, testifying for His name and live as a living sacrifice.
During the course of the Holy Matrimony ceremony, what touched my heart was the word of Pastor Chua. He quoted from the Bible, " ...Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.", Song of Songs 3:5. It really serve as a reminder to me of what kind of attitude I should have in seeking a loving relationship. Finding your other half is something we cannot force onto or something we cannot control. You can't just find a person and expect that you'll be able to nurture a loving relationship with her. God's intervention must be in play. Only with God's participation in bonding two souls as one can we see a truly blossoming and long lasting relationship. Our relationship should be one that glorify God and not one of self seeking purposes. Moses and Cynthia exemplified the importance of such a belief. May God continue to bless them and shower them with love.
Honestly speaking, at this age, I am always wondering when will she come into my life. There have been doubts and there have been considerations but I've yet to find out who is she. I guess today's wedding served as a strong reminder to me as to what kind of attitude I should be carrying with regards to this issue.
Dear LORD Father, may you grant us the patience and trust in you that you'll always know what's best for us. Sometimes with our own will we tend to take matters into our own hands, resulting in more pain than joy as compared to when we started off. Give me the wisdom and give me the patience in handling my emotions, so as to know that whatever I do will be in accord to your will. May my prayer also call out to all brother and sisters in Christ, to carry the same kind of attitude and patience when it comes to relationship, and to shun ourselves alway from the temptation of the world, where godlessness thrive in meaningless unions and relationships.
Amen
A beautiful marriage in God, a priceless reminder, I thank you LORD...
What does it take to be a true friend?
It doesn't matter if you are able to share his joys with him or have fun with him. When times are happy, it is easy to stay close to a friend and be around him. Where there is fun and happiness there are always friends around.
But among these people that surround you, how many can be labelled as your true friends? Deep down in their words you know that they would not lie to you. They do not call you 'brother' and force you into doing something you don't wish to do. When you feel tired and wants to stop for a rest, they would not push you any furthur. They would not force you into feeling bad about not joining them for certain things. They understand you. They do not need you to put words explicitly in order for them to understand how you feel. They truly understand you, just by listening to your tone and observing you.
They'll be there for you in times of toughness. When all else seem hopeless they give you a sense of hope. When times are dark they become the light. They will not give up on you even when you give up on yourself. These are people whom we call true friends.
Look around you, are they true friends? Look at yourself, are you a true friend? I don't know, I certainly do not live up to such a standard. At times, I really feel like I am tired of seeing people around me and I just want to be alone for a while. Too much lies have been told to me and too much disappointment I've seen. Sometimes it just seems like my friends may not be that true as what I perceive them to be. But then again, such expectations are just so not a true friend. True friends accept others for what they are.
A confusing feeling I guess. Days like these and emotions as such are so common for me nowadays. I never felt so disillusioned about such things before. Where was that optimism of mine just a few years back. Have things changed so much or have I changed. Is it me or is it them?
I guess I ain't looking for an answer. I just need some peace and quiet time from all these tangling emotions of human. Just how messed up and fragile we humans are. Always thinking about ourselves and not others. This is how screwed up we are. The older we get, the more selfish we get. Horrible. I ain't wanting to join in this quest of self seeking ego. I need to be different from how these people behave. No matter how hard it is, I will stick to my true self.
Sometimes, I just think that God put some confusions in my life in order for me to find out more about myself. It's just so complicated......