So it is final. I will be going to OCS on monday. I was happy when I got the posting. But back in my mind, I knew that it will be a tough time ahead. It will be a bumpy ride...
My block leave is coming to an end. Really happy to have this well deserved break. After all that I have been through in BMTC, it is really good to have some time to do the things I like and do some catching up with some dear friends. As my life as a Private is drawing to a closure, a new chapter begins. I know not what lies ahead of me, but I shall walk in faith. Need to take good care of myself, don't want to get out of course like how some of my friends did. To all my NS buddies in BMTC, you all have been a bunch of superb people! Really good to know you guys. No matter where you are going, remember, give your best! Always keep the Leopard 4 values going! Will miss ya all...
Hai... A day or more I will be back in a whole new environment. A new camp. I will be stuck in there for another 3 weeks! That means no going to church and going out with friends :(! But it is ok I guess, I will get to meet new friends. I shall set myself another mid term goal, that is to come out safely for commissioning, if God permits...
So, I guess this is it. Here we go again. Jia you Lim Young! It all begins......
What does each step you take mean to you?
Is it merely a step taken?
Or does it mean something more?
Is it a step closer to eternal death, or is it a step closer to eternal life?
Is it a step taking you closer to your dream, or a step further away from it?
Is it a step towards independence or reliance?
Is it a step towards loving someone or hating somebody?
Is each step leading you towards contentment or complacency?
I don't know... Each step is a blessing. It is a blessing to even take a step. It is a blessing, got to treasure it, shouldn't I?
I was once told that when a woman falls in love, she will give in her all emotions. I came across this song and indeed, it is so true. Beautiful song, enjoy!
POP LO! Today I have officially become a Private. Private Lim, not a very high rank but nevertheless, I have completed my first phase in NS.
Today has been an eventful day. Come to think of it, this 3 months passed by really fast. I can't describe it in words but it is really amazing to meet a new bunch of friends. They are an interesting bunch, a mix of different characters. We had a lot of fun together I guess. The tears the sweat and the blisters... not forgetting that Leopard has once again been crowned the champion!
However, the most emotional part for me was the parade. It is not because of the marching, not because of the fact that I am not a Private after being through so much crap. It was my father. As I stood in the parade square looking out into the audience stand, I see a lone figure of my dad sitting there. His head was full of white hair and he looked a lot much older than he used to. My dad stood out from the thousands today because he is my dad. Throughout the parade, I keep my sight fixed on him. I feel like crying too. It was really emotional for me. My dad has worked so hard for the family. All the time spent with us and how he cuddled me when I was little. Toady, I am standing in the parade square, cabable of firing a rifle and going through so much vigorous activities. My dad and mum are the ones that brought me up till this stage. I am a man, or a boy becoming a man. It is time for me to do something for my parents. Being grown up, it is time I take over the responsibility of taking care of myself and in turn, taking care of my parents. They have given me so much, so much that I can never give back. Seldom do I feel like this but even as I type this entry, many emotions are welling inside me.
All these years just seem to pass by so fast. I am just so stunned by what has become of me today. Looking back at my primary school days, it all felt like yesterday. Toady, I even POPed with my primary school best friend. Indeed, life is short. There is so much to do and so little time. The time is NOW! If you have something that you want to do, or even someone to thank, this is the time! Life doesn't wait for you, nor your loved ones. Treasure them and live everyday with a loving heart.
Sigh... I am going back to tekong tomorrow, as a Private! Guard duty sounds exciting. I might get some paranormal encounter there and it will be real cool! Haha, will have fun with my sergeant and buddies. Right now, I just wanna enjoy my long awaited block leave...
Well, I am just 2 more days to becoming a Private. 3 months have passed. Everything seems so fast. I can still remember the day I first became a soldier. It was a day of uncertainty to me. Right now, I have come thus far and still, there is a lot more installed for me in this 2 years of army life.
To be honest, army life is really not my cup of tea. I disagree with many things in there. Sometimes, I wonder why God even put me in this place. I don't see the point at all. Me being so myopic, I am still figuring why God put me through all these.
Then I realised, of this 3 months, I have indeed changed a lot. I have become stronger, physically and mentally. Mentally, I believe I can take hardships much better than before. Just completed the ardous route march last night. Don't think I'll state the distance as I have to respect SAF stand, but most of you should know the distance, haha. It was the longest distance of BMTC course and it is by far the longest I ever walked. As I marched through with sweat all soaking up my clothes, thoughts just ran through my mind. Sometimes, your mind is just blank and you tell yourself I want to finish this. It is amazing what the mind can do. Just a simple thought wanting your block leave will push you on for a long distance. This last route march before I POP is meaningful to me. Every step I take I feel like I have become more matured and stronger. Every step I took I like feel God is walking with me. I feel His love and I can hear Him saying, " Push on Lim Young, push on!" It is in times like this will one really appreciate God's presence and love in your life. I feel a mighty force pushing me towards the end point.
Right now, I still can't figure out why God has put me here. But I do believe that I will come out stronger and serve Him better. Maybe that IS the purpose. Or that said, God may want me to extend His love to the many lost ones. I really need the courage and strength to do all these. Do pray for me. More route march will come my way as I head towards either SISPEC or OCS. But for now, I am contented. Just going to POP and really enjoy my block leave. I know not where He'll bring me, I just walk in faith...