I've just been thinking recently, what I've been through in my life so far. When I sit down to reflect upon the many events in my life, I realised I have much to thank for.
Really, life has been very smooth for me so far. There is really nothing for me to complain about. I've got nice clothes and good food all my life. I've got a lovely family and a bunch of incredible friends. I've had a wonderful education that many would dream of. I've got a wonderful NS experience so far and life as an officer has been very fulfilling. Many people want to go into OCS but they couldn't because of medical reasons, which brings me to the next point, my health has always been good. I've never had any major illness or injuries.
Sometimes I ask myself who am I to deserve all these. God has given me so much and treated me with such love and care. Most importantly, God gave His only son for me. But what have I given LORD? I gave him sadness and disappointment. I realised that many a times, the low points in my life are all results of my disobedience and misjudgements. I make the wrong choices and I make the wrong judgements. Sometimes, I even blame God. But God reamained patient towards me. Who am I to receive such attention from the Holy God Almighty? Really, who am I?
Some of you reading this may find it mundane and find it boring. You may even find it stupid. Why is Lim Young writing these things over and over again? God here God there, what is he trying to prove? He must be writing all these just because he has nothing interesting to write. All I have to say is that this posting comes from the bottom of my heart. I really appreciate what God has given me, how he TREMENDOUSLY changed my life. Without God, my life would be in ruins. I really cannot picture how I can live a proper, dignified life without Him. As long as there is one oppurtunity and one breath in me, I want to proclaim LORD's greatness and kindness.
It is time for me to consider seriously what I can give to the LORD. It is time I consider what I want to do in my life. The picture is clear. There are so many people out there that lives a life unimaginable to many of us here. They live in fear and hunger, dirt and thirst. It would be selfish of me to just sit here and continue to think of ways to lead a better life for myself. It is time for me to strive for a greater purpose.
My goal is clear and my purpose is forged. I WANT TO LIVE FOR YOU LORD...... Help me oh LORD.