And so, another week has passed for me. It has yet been another tough week, but I guess I kind of got used to the toughness in training. In fact, it would be weird if not one moment of training was tough.
Fortunately, the feeling of wanting to go out of course has disappeared. At least I know I am up to the mark now. My mental strength has improved tremendously I would say. You can feel it. You can feel yourself getting stronger by the day, both physically and mentally.
I heard school term is starting soon for the University graduates. I kind of envy them, to be able to start pursuing what they want in life and go for it. Sometimes, I wished I was out there doing what I always wanted to do. There were times I kept on asking myself why in there world am I doing here. I keep finding the meaning of my presence in there.
I guess it is something that God wants me to go through? Never in my life have I been put through all these nonsense. I led a good life, yet I thought life was tough when I was studying. That wasn't the case when NS came into the picture. I am put into a whole new phase of my life. Never did I imagine myself doing all these crap. I've learnt to appreciate what I had. I've learnt to appreciate what I used to dislike. I've learnt to appreciate what meant the most to me. I guessed I came out a stronger person, for God, for my parents and maybe my future family? Everytime I am feeling tired and feel like giving up, I keep telling myself, if I can't get through this, how can I become a missionary dentist? How can I endure the harsh conditions? How can I fulfill my promise to God?
I further asked myself, if I can't get through all these, how can I protect my parents and my family? When they are in trouble, how can I help them or at least stand up for them? I must pushed on. Knowing no limits, you'll be surprised to see how much you can acheive.
I guess in OCS, they really push you to the point that you yourself will be surprised of how much you can acheive. Time and time again I am surprised. I guess being in a situation that you don't like or even to the point of hating it can be good for you. You learn to be more disciplined and you'll start to appreciate what matters the most to you.
Pardon me if I keep on rattling on about NS. That's my life. What else can I talk about? 24 hrs, 6 days a week. Time and time again, I want to remind you all my readers, please appreciate what you have in life, because you'll never know how much they mean to you till you lose them. Well, I guess that's all I have to say. Stay happy and cheerful always! Cheer me on, and thank you all that have given me the support, I'll remember it. :)
This song is really nice. Been hearing it in my bunk every night as my friends play it. It somehow just captured my soul. Really, what hurts the most is losing the things that were closest to you. Being in OCS for 3 weeks, it is really bad as you are going through all sorts of nonsense without your loved ones. Imagine how happy I was when I saw my parents come visit me at parents visitation. I felt like crying, yes boys do cry, we just don't show it. I've learnt that there are so many people that I have yet to show my appreciation to. This song is dedicated to all the people that are so close to my haert. Losing you all is what hurts the most...