Well, I am just 2 more days to becoming a Private. 3 months have passed. Everything seems so fast. I can still remember the day I first became a soldier. It was a day of uncertainty to me. Right now, I have come thus far and still, there is a lot more installed for me in this 2 years of army life.
To be honest, army life is really not my cup of tea. I disagree with many things in there. Sometimes, I wonder why God even put me in this place. I don't see the point at all. Me being so myopic, I am still figuring why God put me through all these.
Then I realised, of this 3 months, I have indeed changed a lot. I have become stronger, physically and mentally. Mentally, I believe I can take hardships much better than before. Just completed the ardous route march last night. Don't think I'll state the distance as I have to respect SAF stand, but most of you should know the distance, haha. It was the longest distance of BMTC course and it is by far the longest I ever walked. As I marched through with sweat all soaking up my clothes, thoughts just ran through my mind. Sometimes, your mind is just blank and you tell yourself I want to finish this. It is amazing what the mind can do. Just a simple thought wanting your block leave will push you on for a long distance. This last route march before I POP is meaningful to me. Every step I take I feel like I have become more matured and stronger. Every step I took I like feel God is walking with me. I feel His love and I can hear Him saying, " Push on Lim Young, push on!" It is in times like this will one really appreciate God's presence and love in your life. I feel a mighty force pushing me towards the end point.
Right now, I still can't figure out why God has put me here. But I do believe that I will come out stronger and serve Him better. Maybe that IS the purpose. Or that said, God may want me to extend His love to the many lost ones. I really need the courage and strength to do all these. Do pray for me. More route march will come my way as I head towards either SISPEC or OCS. But for now, I am contented. Just going to POP and really enjoy my block leave. I know not where He'll bring me, I just walk in faith...