Recently, there seems to be a big commotion about the presence of blogs. There seems to be a debate going on about the value that blogs bring to a society. Thus, it brought me think of blogging about blogs this time. :)
Ok, here is the general picture. Some people complain about the effects that blogs can bring. As we all know that blog is a rather open form of platform for publicising one's thoughts. This openess brings both information and rubbish to us. Sometimes, the rubbish can really be annoying too. You see people critcising their teachers openly in their blogs. You see people criticising politicians for the sake of doing so. Undeniably, it does bring a considerable amount of damage to the person involved.
Personally, I think it is perfectly alright for us to have a blog. Not only because I own one but because I enjoy using it! However, like all things that man come up with, there always tends to be abuse of the things that we use and it brings insult to the original intention of the thing's presence. Drug abuse. Camera phone abuse. All these are just too common. Unfortunately, blogs fall into such catergory.
Honestly speaking, I feel that many of the blogs I see around me are really meaningless. Meaningless as in disgusting and useless. It is perfectly all right if you rattle on with what happened in your daily life and you share your experiences. I enjoy reading such blogs. It tells me what is happening with some of my friends around me. I understand them better through it. But some blogs are like... I don't know. Tell me... Why in the world do you need to sputter F***, KNN, KNNB, CB etc. It really sickens me. To me, such people are just idiots with such pitiful ability of expression of themselves that they resort to all these offensive, degrading words. And don't you people dare tell me that that's the way you are and that people just got to take it when they read it. Blogs are like public places. Vulgarites are like dog poo littered around in public places. Shut that filthy mouth of yours and it will do us very much good. The only reason that I can think off is that such people are so deprived that they need the attention of others through such mindless degrading means. Worst of all disasters, they think it is cool. And NO, they don't like to have phrases with double adjectives, they like to say "F****** cool". And trust me, the only people that will try to rebut me on this point are those that are guilty of it. It is not that difficult to spot them. Wake up and stop giving yourselves excuses to be of such a jerkish nature. It is better for you to correct than be a hypocrite.
Another kind of blogger that I loathe is the kind that critcise individuals or openly attack someone. I've seen people attacking their friends, their teachers, the government. I mean come on man. You hate the person, fair enough. You just make yourself a "gu niang" by publishing such thoughts to the whole world. It just shows how lowly you are and that you are incapable of managing your own emotions that you need to go around affecting others. Why? You want to garner support for you anti-whoever effort is it. Look yourself in the mirror will you? You are like a brood of vipers spitting poison. Are you all so perfect that you have the right to be a judge on others' that you've failed to see your own inner failing desire? Take the plank blocking your view off before your try to blow the speck of saw dust in your brother's eyes. And don't give that stupid excuse that the person is really lousy and that it is only fair for you to voice out your displeasure. You are just a hypocrite, admit it. Stop criticising the government if you have your own selfish agenda. Spouting nonsense doesn't show others that you are interested in politics and issues. Your shallow thoughts just amplify the emptiness within that coconut like structure above your neck. If you are so capable of judging and planning, you would have been in the position of authorithy. If you are not there, just shut up.
In huge contrast, I've seen many blogs in the other countries. They are like so different! I have seen blogs that are cultural-based, interest based etc. People share their interests with others on their blogs. It is so much more meaningful. It really is disappointing to see the lack of useful ideas in those jerkish bloggers.
Nevertheless, I still think that at the end of the day, no one can control what one wants to say in their blogs. It is only up to our own conscience that we blog with a respectable manner, not in a way to defame and criticise others meaninglessly all for the sake of the ego we have.
kaira gong shi jia
What do people see themselves being? What are their minds constantly thinking about? These questions have always evoked immense interest in me. Understanding the human thinking takes profound knowledge and experience.
Are we all really that unique? Do we always follow the wisdom of the crowd? What are the hidden agendas behind our face? Sometimes, these questions just keep cropping up my mind. I spent quite some time thinking of it too. Everytime I am alone, sitting on the bus, observing people, I come out with funny ideas to my ever seemingly redundant questions.
I realised, at the end of the day, the answer is staring right at me. It is in me, it is with me and it is me. Understanding thyself seems to be the best way to understand the people around you. That's in my opinion. I believe that human beings are all in this intricate system that we are unconcious of, that is our own society. We love to look at the society from OUR own point of view. We believe that the issues involved in a society is always about the others. The problems involves the others, not me. This is a case of ME vs SOCIETY. We constantly judge the society by being in our own shoes. How then can we be of an objective opinion when we ourselves are very much part of the society? Humans are interconnected, we long for company. Evidence are like holidays. How many of us feel bored at home all the while? I do. Many a times, we long for holidays to come in our busy school days, a time for us to get away from the noise and the people. But when the holidays do come, we long for school. Contradictory isn't it. That's why outings in holidays are always so fun because people get together to do things they like!
So what is my point? My point is basically that we humans have this unseen connection looming above us all the time. It seems difficult for a person to be drawn out of the society. Thus, we are part of the society and we make the society. Sometimes, I realise, when we pull our spirit and mind away from our own body, understanding why people do some things don't seem to become that difficult. Unknowingly, we ourselves are like doing the many things that society is doing. That is where trend comes in. Why do people like iPods so much? Why do people rush after new handphone models? Why do people want to get 4As and 2 S Papers distinctions so much(In my school that is)? Then, I try pulling my mind out of the picture. I imagine myself being the person I am observing on the bus. I look at myself, I look at my own image. I try to fanthom what my mind is thinking. Then I realise, deep down in my heart, many of these things are the very things that I long for too. I long to change handphones as and when I like. I long to buy all kinds of MP3 players. I long to be the top boy in my school. This are the many small desires that many of us choose to deny. Self denial leads to self misunderstanding.
Then, I go on to ask myself the questions of why I have such desires? Imagine interviewing yourself, that's how I view it!
"So Young! Why do want an iPod?" says the interviewer.
"Oh! Because it looks nice and people says it is nice and I think it is nice! Having it makes me feel like I am part of the crowd!"
"Why then do you want good academic results? Don't people always say results aren't the most important but it is the process that matters?"
"Nonsense! In this world, being unable to deliver what people want you to deliver is unacceptable. Not being the best means you are being deemed as being lousier. I want 4As so as to get into medicine and be a doctor! I want recognition..."
"But don't you always say you want to be a doctor only because you want to be a noble missionary doctor to serve the weak and bring them happiness?"
"That is the ideal. But lets admit it, deep down inside, we all have the same and the only desire, that is to be in power, to be in the limelight. We all want fame, glory and recognition. Living in self denial that one do not long for such things is a lie itself." says Young
"That's very bold of you!" says interviewer
"It isn't, I just don't want to live myself in self denial that I try to make things look noble and beautifully packaged for me. I want to understand my own weaknesses and strength. I believe admitting one is weak is a strength in iteslf..." says Young
And that was the interview I had with myself. You may find it funny yes but this are the things going through my mind! Now I THINK I understand what many people are thinking. Because I THINK I understood myself. We ourselves are very much the same as many other people. We do the same things many a times. Therefore, no one is in any position to judge. I understand myself and others better I guess...
So how do we rectify problems and inner desires we have then? Some people might say "Gosh! Not again!! Why can't Lim Young stop this!! He always does this like a fanatic in his blog!!" Haha, but nevertheless, I am going to share it!! That is my religion!! For me, that is how I see. We humans are never able to rectify our own desires. We ourselves have this innate nature with us. I believe only a Higher Power can do that ( No GP batteries though -_-''' haha). Seriously! Don't leave this blog as yet!! Haha! Come to think of it, maybe we don't really understand ourselves that much, do we? The clarity only comes from a 3rd person's view maybe? Each day I long in God's presence and power to suppress these sinful desires. The very things that makes me a lousy person. I believe no one understands me better than my Lord Father, not even myself. Self improvement first comes with escaping self denial. Then it comes to self analysis, and then it comes to self rectification, which in my case, is handing over my worries to our Creator and Father.
All in all, if I sound disorientated, do forgive me! Cause that is what I always do when I blog. Tend to diverge alot. However, I hope to share with people what my thoughts are, though I don't blog often, I do hope my blog has qualities, not some kind of blog that goes around ranting what I do and who I hate and where in the world I go for trainings and have fun. I mean who really cares?