Recently, I have been looking back at my life so far in HC. A good one in general I say.
I immersed myself in a memory flowback one day. I looked back at the times I had in orientation. It was very fun, VERY FUN. That was the most enjoyable part of my JC life I guess. It was then that everyone was without stress. It was then that everyone showed the happy side of themselves. It was then that everyone was in the mood of exploration, searching new discoveries in a new environment. Everyone was carefree. I enjoyed their company.
But as times goes, things seems to change for the worse. Competition starts to set in as we work hard for our tests and studies. I see the despising side of people swelling and oozing out of their mouths. Their words are like a rusty sword piercing into the hearts of others. They manipulate others. They exaggerate other people's mistakes to take comfort in themselves. They stab you in the back like your are a nobody. You realize being nice makes you a simple life form that can be easily trampled and thrown around. You are treated worthlessly...
Some people want you to conform with them. They pressurize you to be what you don't want to be. They criticize you, for the wrong reasons. Reasons like not going to the movie. Reasons like not playing soccer with them ( JUST AN EXAMPLE!! HAHA! No other intentions) Reasons like you are a Malaysian... What the? I mean what is your point? If you are a scholar, you are paid by the govenment here to study, not to play around. Naturally, these people will need to work harder to ensure that they do not fail and flop the trust that was given to them. I will respect them for their hard work and not criticize. I will not despise them for being what is commonly known as a MUGGER. I hate it when people say, " Bloody Malaysians/PRC..." Your point being? Your arrogance and ignorance makes me SICK!
I also hate it when people start criticizing and pressurizing other people for not going to class outings or what. I mean, you pass a paper around to ask people if they want to go. Thus, people have a choice. But when people get to choose to excercise their choice of not going, why start being an idiot and whine about the whole situation? It just shows the shallowness of your thinking state and maturity. I mean I may sound all too critical and exaggerating and I agree to that. But the point I am trying to bring out is something that is real and troubling me. I hold no grudge against anyone. I never hated anyone as people around me can testify to that. I never liked to talk behind people's back. I was never brought up to do that. I just hate the WHOLE SITUATION. I understand how people will feel sad and fustrated when you try to organise a class outing and bond the class together and no one really cares. But what I am trying to tell everyone is that don't start blaming the people around you. They might have their own reasons for that. Understand also the school we are in. Tons of people are aimming to get into difficult course like medcine. It is natural for them to work hard for their goals. Not many people can manage time and work SO WELL like YOU! You can acheive your goals easily not because you are better than the person but because you are blessed with something that some other people don't. It could be that you are given better focus or attention span. Good for you. But it brings you nowhere near in having the right to criticize others for not being able to acheive what you are able to. Treasure the time you have in class. Don't start giving people names behind their backs. Try to enjoy their company. Cause if you can't do that in class, what makes you think you will enjoy the time in class outings? We all have to understand this fact.
I have a classmate that is very good in his studies. 4 As all the time. That's how good he is. However, he is never proud. He is down to earth humble. In fact, he goes around helping students that are weaker. He don't criticize people for being not as good as him. I for one, is a weaker student in my class. He helps me out A LOT. I appreciate it. He even sets questions for me to practice! How nice to have such people around. I respect him a lot. Because he earned and didn't fight for it.
All in all, what I am trying to say is that we all have our strengths and weakness. Some of our strengths may look more significant than others while our weakness are more behind the scenes. But don't try to hurt others that are not as lucky as you. Because trust me, in this dog eat dog society, if you don't give people some slack to their weaknesses, when your turn comes, it will be much worse. Simple math. You, one person, irritates ten others, Each receive one person's worth of irritation. When the moment comes for them to irritate you, expect 10 times the irritation they receive. You like that? I don't...