There are many things in my life nowadays that left me thinking. I realised that I have many things in hand and I am taking so much of them that some of them seems to be slipping off my loaded hand.
I have been playing volleyball since p2. 11 years in total. 11 years can be enough to raise a person up, it also can be enough to distort a person. I ask myself, what have I gained? Gold Medals? None. Friends? Some. Learning Experience? Many. Unhappiness? Loads of them. Don't get me wrong. I love this game down to the core. I never had enjoyed a game so much. But some things just seems to be bothering me. I see people chasing after things meaningless in this game. They chase after personal glory. They chase after authorithy. They chase after rebellion. They chase after many things, all at the expense of the enjoyment of this wonderful game. Sometimes, they robbed mine too... But who am I to say that others are the cause of my sadness? These things do happen. It is part of us. People don't see what I am trying to do to lead a team. But it's ok. Maybe I am more matured than the rest? Or maybe I am flawed as a captain, I lack the ability to lead? I choose to believe in the later. Only then, will I strive myself to acheive greater leadership qualities. It takes effort to bring a team of people together. I accepted the challenge, I guess I must live up to it. I will give in MY BEST! FAILURE WILL NOT STOP ME!
Thankfully, there are many things in life to be happy for. Such things are like flowers booming in an endless desert. They beautify the arid surroundings with unselfish commitment. My family, baobei, and TRUE friends. The last is hard to find as such people are willing to listen to you, not like some others who act as though they do. My true friends never lie to me. They should know who they are. To you people, I say a big thank you! But most importantly, I thank God. Yes, I always do it and people mock me. I don't care, cause they don't know how important God is to me. They mock me out of their own will. True friends don't do that.
Well, sorry for being so weird. These are just some of my subtle ways to express my deepest feelings. I sought not to be understood by selfish people. I only hope that they understood themselves better. I hope they do...